I am tired of missing and loving someone. how i wish i could forget but alas it was a love that i am unable to forget. i think i make her sad and dispaoointed with me again maybe i should not sms her until she sms me so to let her recover faster. though i was thinking if she could open up we could have a nice chat. she mention she just want to be friends i was hoping for more. yes i admit tjhat is a fact maybe not as gf bf if i really cannot get her to changed her mind but i wish i will be someone close to her to be able to still share her joys and sorrow. i hope it is not too much to ask for. for the time being i just pray she will recover fast and god please let her have sweet dreams once again. this whole issue i feel very scared to love too since the one i love so deeply now is so deeply hurt by me is it the love was too furious and resulted in a blackout. i donknow a lot of things anymore i just hope i can see into the future and rest my poor broken heart at ease. Miss chin email me say that i did not do well for exams she feel it weird. she ask me if i got family problems or personal problems i told her both i have but thanks for her concern but it will be better not to say since it is a problem i must resolve with me and the other party . my mum kept asking about this girl whether she will come to visit my home once again. i don know wat to reply excpet to say only she will know and time will tell.