finally we chatted a bit on msn. clear some misunderstanding and realise both of us are doing stupid and childish things to one another but the damage is done. she feel too hurt to get back. i feel too hurt to love once again.

she told me the movie my sassy girl.
i guess she want to be free , both of us have dreams but we gave up because of one another.
if i am single i will not choose this line. but since i am in nursing now. i will aim to be a APN. no matter how long it takes
i believe i got the ability to do it , time and space is my only concern,

i wish her all the best and if she really found someone she love i will give her my blessing. just like how i give my blessing to my childhood sweetheart and my pre u school crush. both got married and are happy now .

for me it is time to erase what is negative about me . and make what is positive about me stronger.
i am not a weak person
i ran 84km
i went to desert to train
i can take tons of hardship
i had a difficult childhood
all this did not make me a broken man
instead a more complete person.
part of my wings are torn but i will learn to make do with it .