finally it is friday again. i don know i feel tired though i sleep better now. my heart still aches from a loss but i know i need to stay focus to complete whatever i started. this course of 2 yrs has teach me patience and humble though i am self confessed i have both. as i had experienced in the army. i guess in nursing i can fine tune this two. hopefully i am made a better person. i now talk to my mum more. i fear for the day she disappear. in all my life she is ever present though i never told her how much i love her. i tried to buy tonic talk to her and try to buy things for her and make her happy since the day i started to work. now i cannot afford so much but when i finish this course i think i am going to take over the housing loan. i want her remaining life to be better than the days we had experienced. My sister is doing well now with her bf. they mention about marriage in 4 years. she say she want to start a family outside the bf house. i was like that guy parents got a bungalow why need to move out. housing is expensive now 20 % downpayment. i don understand but i guess even my mum cannot advise her so not much i can do. she is as headstrong as my father. good or bad i don know. i only pray the in laws will be ok.

hmm about 30 mins before i go for work. i now have more free time to play games though i tried to go out less the most is go watch movies with ben and sin. we agreed we will not drink unless very emo and will not have fine dining unless our 3 birthdays. many bottles of champagne wine and alcohol has drained us of money . hehe. in august i spend a lot i hope to save up to go for a trip in next yr and when i finish this course i think i am going solo backpack in Europe unless i manage to persuade someone to go with me. with sin and ben go with me will be better. i am good with maps. ben got money lol and sin is good with directions. and i am good with cultures. haha 3 of us can repair machinery and vehicles and ben and me can drive anything expcet a air plane. i can even drive a tank lol. sin can hope to compile the photos . sounds like a dream team though it will be better for some girls to go with us. but i guess in the short period of time we three will be single. Does nice guys really finish last.?

It seems my friends now revolve around people near or around my social class. i sort of don contact my rich firiends i feel i got nothing to show of my achievement. until one day i make it i will be more able to stand on my own feet.

sin and ben are really nice. as with jason and nick. this 4 person really form my firends forever i wonder do guys have BFF. nick is now a civil servant and always busy but his sincerity of concern for me is cool. i wish him all the best .

jason is doing well in usa. i pray he found his true love.

Sin is doing well in his career hope he continue to advanced.
Ben got his extension of contract, i just pray he will do well too.
i am still a student but i will be patient and wait for my chance to climb the ladder too.

AL i pray you continue to do well in your marriage in australia and your career as a doctor.

Jean pls take good care of yourself, though i am not by your side . you will always be in my heart , you now possess more space than my childhood sweetheart .

i wonder who do read my blog lol. since i nv publicise the address. i guess not impt.

Regards
Me myself and I